Keeping busy...

Albert Einstein ~ "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."

I agree with this.  I find that when I'm not keeping busy, seeing friends, occupying my mind, I become aware of a little black monster biting at my ankles.  Anybody else like that?

I try to remind myself of all my blessings. I am healthy.  I have amazing friends.  I have the most awesome family.  I am loved.  So how do I stop getting stuck in negative thinking? Heaven knows, if you (I) dwell too long on these thoughts, it's a vicious cycle that just goes on and on, and a week down the line, you are even worse off than when the little black monster came to take up residence!

To be truthful, I think I know where my "black" thoughts start.  It starts with me focusing too much on how much I miss my family.  How much I miss sunshine.  How much I miss South Africa.  People have asked me, so why don't you just go home then?!  It could be that simple, but it isn't.  I can offer support from where I am now that I wont be able to do if I go back.  Another blessing, is off course, if I stay here for 2 more years, I qualify for British Citizenship! In my mind there is no other option but to stay here till then. 

Now, to get "better" I am going to start getting cross with myself.  I am going to tell myself:  STOP!  Phone a friend! Smile! Go for a walk! Get busy! Just do something!!

A long time ago a friend told me this.  He said, we were all created to roam the skies, far above the clouds like eagles.  But sometimes, something happens and we kinda forget we are meant to soar high above everything, and we come down to earth and start believing we are chickens, and we get busy scratching away at the soil, wondering around while we should be soaring up high.  Just because you are on the ground doesn't mean you are a chicken.  Spread your wings and fly!

I don't know if I am the only one that is like this.  I hope not...

This is really just a little pep talk to myself.  If anybody reads this, just smile.